Emo?

Hmm, recently I was quite emo.
I had no idea what had happened to me.
Well,perhaps I had no confidence at all now especially with him TT
I used to love him more than he love me,and I hoped we will become a normal and sweet couple one day.
However, things didn't seem going well as I wished TT
I thought when time flies,he will love me and cares about me like normal bf does,
but the answer is always NO.
I want to tell him all what I'm thinking, but I didn't have the guts as I know this is his style.
But I still hoping that I have the priority to change him but never will come true.
What should I do?
I really love him, love him more than I can say.
I really exhausted and scare I will lose him someday.
I really don't want to think too much and make things more complicated.
Please stop me TT